My Dearest Friend

Welcome back
To the death of the day
And the birth of his work

If only I knew how to find him
At times you my hear a creek in your home
Or the sounds of fingernails scratching the wall to the right of you

But it is all in your head, right?
It can’t be real
Your nerves couldn’t take it

Keeping your eyes open as you are fearful to plunge into the unknown
Opening them you may find more than your covers on top of you
I remember a friend I had

He was my best friend
We had so much fun in the dark
Except for the times he would hide away from those who didn’t know

Who couldn’t understand
Who never believed me
Who didn’t accept him

I didn’t want to be alone
In my insanity
In my “insanity”

But I’m sure you know what I’m talking about
When you see your covers ruffle and wrinkle on their own
Or the heat of his breath

It isn’t real
It can’t be real
It can’t just be you, right?

It’s just your imagination
Why out of all people would you be chosen?
Stop saying that!

You aren’t insane
Its real
Stop it!

Don’t tear my mind!
That isn't work
Shut up!

You will probably turn on your phone's flashlight at this point
To look at the room and see you are indeed alone
You will then relax and turn off the light

Taking the light with you
As she did
I did the same to her

You’ll have to calm yourself
Of course you will
Your mind will keep thinking

Thinking of all the ways a human body can bend
And snap
And tear

As you head to the bathroom
Splashing your face with cold water to wake yourself
Alert yourself

Subconsciously you look behind your reflection
Nothing there either
Utterly alone

But as you turn off your lights
And close your door
With one last glance at the mirror between the frame and the door

This is when you see him
He will not speak
He will cry as he does

In his corner
This is expected
You don’t know him

I do
He will not love you
He will not protect you

He doesn’t like you, you know
You don’t believe in him
Neither did she

And we all know how that ended
Sleep tight
I wonder if anyone else remembers him

Calvin
How I wish I could be with him
I miss the way he cries