43

1, 2, 3, 4
You know something, Matthew?
5, 6, 7, 8
Depression is a slippery slope.
9, 10, 11, 12
'How so?'
13, 14, 15, 16
Sometimes you will find yourself at the pinnacle of existence...before stepping among the demons you thought you left behind.
17, 18, 19, 20
'I've beaten my demons, the past will stay behind me.'
The past does nothing for you!!!
21, 22, 23, 24
It's nothing more than a label! A way to see the good in situations where there is nothing. Nothing to offer for the unrealistic optimist you are.
25, 26, 27, 28
...Matthew, this has to stop. It will get to you, as it gets to everyone.
29, 30, 31, 32
The only difference being that some accept the plunge to the ground...
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And some have to be pushed off of the ledge.
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Regret will find where you hurt. And you will want to push away.
40...40...
Where you burn and rot deep inside.
41, 42
Regret will see how many steps you can take.
42...42...
The most important steps in your young life.
43... 'Don't look down, Matthew.'
Before it twiddles its black, dislocated thumbs...
43...'Do it!!'
With its bitten-off fingernails...
43... 'I can't...'
And shoves you onto the asphalt.